Positive / Negative
You are confused about all kinds of things / On the one side you have "family heritage preaching" and your own insecurities; on the other side you had a righteous scholarship offer.
You "disremember" things to support your family's sense of your "victimization." / Your family victimized you when you were young(er) and vulnerable; now your extended family does the same in new ways.
Your future as a student is somewhat diminished unless you make decisions for yourself. / Your powerful and controlling "in loco parentis" group feels you have to prove yourself.
You rightly want to "prove" yourself to your aunts and others. / Apparently you will go to any lengths to protect the family you have left -- even embellishing the truth and creating a "new history" with lies of omission.
You created a sense of self-righteous indignation over "invasive questions" asked of you about religion, family, and self. / You were told beforehand the questions could be embarrassing and would certainly be invasive: and that you didn't necessarily have to answer any of them.
You claim to be an innocent "young girl" put upon by "yet another" male figure. / No one can do this to you: you are neither a young girl, nor are you put upon by anyone except your family and your past experiences.
Past history haunts you (and confuses you). / But your "new present" scares and depresses.
You need to grow up and face up to your life, your condition, your treatment and likely outcomes. / No one can do that for you; your must do it for yourself.
You often think you are "not free" and that seriously depresses you, or makes you anxious. / You are set up with medication, "therapy," and "in loco parentis" support to exacerbate that condition.
In spite of undercutting and condemning those who offered you opportunities; you are still respected
and "loved" (in the widest sense) by them. / You are not a "young girl"; no one has currently victimized you; and your life is yours to "create."
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