Thursday, August 6, 2015

Tosha, My Gosh-s, Tosha

Tosha is still struggling with the Managing Director problem at COR.  At a meeting last night she wasn't quite able to get him to resign immediately (he would like to stay until Jan and on the Board for a year after that).  Tough situation.

He's blaming Tosha in an open meeting for what "she did" and yet she knows all the things he "didn't do" which caused a raft of problems.

Yikes.

Sometimes you just have to be ruthless and get the person "out"; no matter how unpleasant that can be. I say that now, but I remember how difficult in was during my "halcyon days."

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

What's Up Tosha?

I don't think that my surrogate daughter, Tosha, reads my blog.  Nonetheless let this short note serve as a "subliminal, virtual, psycho-hypnotic message to her --- "let's connect."

What's up Tosha of COR Theatre, Chicago, Illinois?

Dawn's Dreary Light

Much to my chagrin, I have become a morning person. Before the sun, before the first cool pre-dawn breezes -- my eyes open to a grey and unforgiving truth.  I have become a morning person.

It was never something I sought; never something I desired. But it has happened nonetheless.  I have become a morning person.

Are there "perks" to this condition? Does one's life span increase dramatically? Does the body say --"yes, you are doing well; live longer than your "slugabed" neighbors!" "Much longer!" Nope! Nothing changes except you find yourself groping in the dark as you rise; stumbling a bit more than usual because of the shadows in the room; struggling to turn on the damn bathroom light! I have become a morning person. 

It was never my fondest dream -- but here it is. I have become a morning person.  

Tuesday, August 4, 2015

Buzzkill

Some people are just "buzzkills!"  They drain the life's blood out of all activities; they hinder all happy moments; they suck the life out of beautiful day.  Buzzkill!

I could name a number of people I now know who are consummate buzzkill. But I won't.  It would be hurtful and probably wrong (to say nothing of self-destructive). But I can certainly "think" it -- and I do.

Buzzkill!

Candidates (GOP) Forum in New Hampshire

Watched the bulk of the Republican field try to win the hearts of voters last night on Hearst/ABC stations. Questions came from the audience via a pretty good moderator and each candidate had two rounds of questions, and a 30 sec. "this is me" presentation to the audience both live and on tv.

Kasich probably came off as the most rational; Cruz the most delusional!  Rand Paul seemed a tolerable choice -- none of them will "get the nod." Carly Fiorina (?) the one time leader of HP seemed to out-male the males; while poor Jeb Bush just seemed tongue-tied at times. Too slow; too out of it; too behind the times. Most of the others -- including Pataki, Walker, Perry, etc. just seemed egotistical morons.

Ah, what an election this is going to be --- 16 months out and counting!!!!


Monday, August 3, 2015

Finished -- Self Appraisal

Today, Monday, I finished my "self-appraisal" -- which fortunately isn't due until tomorrow.  I was honest, thorough, and complete -- none of which will be much appreciated by anyone who might read it.

It is after all a "grading scale" with little regard for personality, achievement, or success. It is just a "quantifiable" instrument for keeping everyone motivated: numbers can't be too high or the person will just "relax" and do nothing {the anti-tenure argument}; numbers can't be too low or the person will get angry at the self-improvement regimen they will get.

The instrument in use by STC is slightly short of a 1980's business self-appraisal that you might give to warehouse workers at your plant in Reading, PA. It is not a form nor a format for professional self- appraisal.  And so it goes.

Taking Stock...

I am an introspective geek at times.  I constantly "take stock" of where I am, what I am doing, and how well I feel about the whole process.

I look closely at my life and times as a teacher, as a husband, as a boyfriend, and as a person. In most areas I could only give myself a grade of "adequate" -- if grades were the thing that determined success or failure. I know I should have done better -- but for many, many reasons -- I just didn't.