I was introspectively looking back into my pre-marriage dating habits -- and discovered, to my amazement, that a number of the women I dated are now in same sex relationships in their 50's. Amazing to me, because at the time they were in their 30's -- they dated; were hardly monogamous, and gave off vibes of extreme sensuality: they were never shy.
It's true that nearly all were "artsy" types (actresses, singers, radio talent, etc.) -- and so anything was possible with them. But I just find it a bit shocking that all of them now seem to be in "committed but still secretive" lesbian relationships. I am not so dumb nor so arrogant to think I was the cause, or even was ancillary, to their self-discovery process. But I do see all this as a coming trend, and a corollary to my thinking on this matter.
White women who have not gotten married -- find an "easier sexuality" in relationships, even carnal ones, with other women. If I were to state that this was not true of one or two of the women I dated -- but all five of the women I dated who subsequently never married. I just find it odd. Very odd.
Perhaps I was drawn to their feminine desire for sensuality --- but for a number of reasons, many anatomical, could not fulfill that desire. Or perhaps they gave up on men -- as most of them did on me, passing me by for other men on their route to finally finding the "right woman."
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