How does a story continue without further contact among the characters? Easily! How does memory happen? How does life continue to flow even when the nagging frustrations appear to overcome all sense, and all normalcy? Why do thoughts linger in our brains? Why does our desire never cease to stir us into regret, or satisfaction unsatisfied?
Bertina was and is perhaps my second "soul mate" --- so why did I resist that fact; why did I decide the relationship was "impossible?" I'm afraid the answer is complex -- a combination of circumstances, life's experiences (for both of us), and distance -- these have created the answer. You cannot have what will kill you --- or it will kill you. You should not love that one person who may not know they love you -- but would hurt you at a moment's notice, simply out of ignorance and antipathy towards themselves. You will not willingly hurt yourself -- for any promised promise of happiness. Lying is not an option in life -- truth is what keeps us free and able to be ourselves.
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